Ugh..I am so tired and drained. Where is all my energy from yesterday? I was feeling so positive that things would get better for me. Now, I am just paranoid. I am worring about the things I can not change. I can not make Tiki apologize for being wrong, even though it might take months for him to do it. I wish he wasn't so damn arrogant. I wish, he could just take a moment to get over himself and be humble. I thought about IMing yesterday online but I don't want to be the one to say I am sorry for this one. He just needs to learn that he can not lash out at me like he's been doing if he wants me in his life. Peraphs, I need to accept the fact that he might not want me in his life at all. I am not sure how exactly he feels about me. Well, now I know he's angry with me for all the wrong reasons.-Gwen Stafani-Sweet Escape- If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world
& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet ) I need someone to vent too. Kori and Natasha are here for me but they don't really know any of these people. Diane is very busy with her own life and accomplishing all her goals. She's so driven and beautiful, I wish she would see that but she is humble and I love that about her. I wish, I could be more humble and do more good things for people but where do I start? I don't know. Everything seems beyond repair right now. My mom, her friend Nicky and I are going to Casadaga this weekend. I am excited to hear what my tarot is going to read. I need some big changes happening soon for me. I need some positive influences in my life.